Fear comes in many forms.

9.55am 2 Mar 2006 Thursday

I've been waking up every night, screaming and trying to run away from a phantom figure.

But sometimes fear doesn't have to be aliens or ghosts - they can be very tangible things like the future. OK, so the future isn't tangible yet. But the weight of the things that are soon to be happening, and your seeming nonchalance... it scares me. Perhaps that's why I prep myself for nothing beyond June. Because the way things are going, there IS nothing beyond June.

Sometimes I worry out of concern but this worry seems displaced, because you're too laid back and too much of a procrastinator to be pro-active. Or perhaps you do take action, but I'm not there to see it.

One way or the other, I cannot rest until I see an offer, or at least a resume and the companies you're going to apply to. How else can I trust you, if so far your word has been worthless?

Sigh. It's easier to worry for one than for two, or even four.