"Don't presume to tell me what I will and will not do. You don't know me."

8.36am 9 Aug 2006 Wednesday

It's National Day. I miss the fireworks, the gatherings that would have taken place... but that's not why I'm writing today. Flying off to my love in 5 hours and I'm very excited! Finally get to wear my cute little plaid skirt from Target.

So today I was reading a blog linked from someone else's blog, and it said on the sidebar: "You don't know me. Don't ever think you do." That reminded me of the famous phrase from the Titanic that Rose told Jack just as she was about to jump, (at least I think that was the scene..) "Don't presume to tell me what I will and will not do. You don't know me."

Why are some people so fixated with that phrase? I mean, if they choose to put up a mask in public to hide their melancholy, their sadness, their pain, why act cool when people see through them, or attempt to know them better? If you're really disinterested in people knowing the real you, then by all means stay away from others.

Unfortunately, the fact that they can't stay away from people and from making friends show that they do want someone to break into their heart - they're just unwilling to be honest with themselves and with their friends. How fair is that to their own selves, and the people who have treated them well?

When something happens and their actual emotions leak through and people say, "But that's not like you," they flare up. If it's so hard for you to be truthful to the people around you, don't blame them for thinking they know you, that they are your friend. Because friends are supposed to be honest with each other, and to help carry your burden. If you're the one who chose to shut yourself out and only present one side of your personality to others, why blame your friends, or people who think they know you, for not knowing you?

Having said that, I don't think I actually have any friends who have said that to me. It's just that I've seen and heard people say that, and it never fails to leave me wondering why they do something like that to hurt themselves, and their friends.

Anyhow. Donna is coming for me soon - better finish up some last minute packing!