Suddenly inspired

9.39am 7 Aug 2006 Monday

Things I ought to be doing now:

1. Writing my lab report
2. Lying on the mall outside the library and enjoying the beeeoootiful cloudy, impossibly blue skies.
3. Not writing this blog entry

The weather is perfect today, with a mild breeze passing by every now and then, and the sharp contrast of the white clouds, cobalt blue skies, fresh green grass and red adobe bricked campus buildings is breathtakingly beautiful.

I came to a conclusion while driving to school and listening to soppy songs, that there are basically 2 types of relationships that I've been through: the emotionally destructive; and the constructive, of course. I'll focus on the former because that's what inspired this post.

The memory of the relationship still strikes you now and then when you're not on guard, and you suddenly feel this... odd sensation that shakes your entire being, down to the bone marrow. It's not a pleasant nor unpleasant feeling, neither is it a physical jolt. The only analogy it is remotely close to, is the feeling of seeing a straight line that seems crooked. Mind you, it's not the memories you have with the person, nor is it the memory of the person, per se. It's like a what-if loop that your mind plays, which I can only attribute to the mysterious circumstances of the death of that relationship. Anyway. I feel a little sad that I still have Jeremy in my system, and it feels as if I'm mentally unfaithful to H. That is never good but how can you purge someone out of your system, especially if you cannot approach him because he's not the type of be truthful and help you get over him?

hehe makes me realise how good I've had it with the other ex-boyfriends.

But anyway. That pesky thought aside, I just came up with a brilliant idea of surprising people coming to my graduation! See, that's what I daydream of before I even graduate. Anyway. My welcome-to-Tucson kit will include:

- A canvas bag with UA colours/ motifs (???)
- An itinerary: Campus tour, Mt Lemmon tour, Kitt Peak trip, 4th Ave St fair, 7 falls (???), Desert museum
- A UA t-shirt
- A UA flag (like the ones cheesy tour guides always carry)
- A kokopelli or cactus something (magnet? mug? pen-holder? photo frame might be good- then they can all frame their favourite photo with the graduate!)
- A Tucson/ UA collage!

Of the Tucson/ UA collage, I will include:
- photos of my favourite tree in school throughout the seasons (well, basically when it's green, yellow/orange, and bare)
- sunset views
- mountain views
- roses at College of AG
- cactus views
- wildlife (eg cottontail bunnies, roadrunners, quails, etc)

Oooh! So excited!!!

P/S: KKK: shh!!! Don't you speak of this to anyone, OK?